How do you feel about your weight? I mean the number on the scale. For the last 5 years, I have been on an off and on weight loss journey. It’s been over 5 years now and I have still not reached my “goal weight” no matter how hard I tried. It’s driving me nuts so I’m ready to nip that in the bud before it escalates.
I haven’t always been this way. As a little girl, I was pretty thin and lanky. I wasn’t the child who ate too much either. I was very active and so there really wasn’t enough room for me to “grow”. This remained through my teen and pre-teen years. In fact, I remember one occasion where one of my aunts was giving me tips on how to gain weight. I was 12 at the time and she was advising me to eat smaller portions frequently rather than binge eat 3 times a day like we typically did.
As I morphed into adulthood and got embraced the American society, I became aware of my body. I realized my belly wasn’t flat enough and my thighs seemed bigger than I’d love them to be. Still, I never really cared about how much I weighed on the scale. I just wanted flatter abs and that was it.
Eventually, I became conscious of that number on the scale when I realized I weighed 140 lb ish. That seemed like a super high number to me. Granted I still looked fairly lean, wearing a medium in junior clothing (I didn’t start buying women’s sized clothes until 2 years ago). At the back of my mind, 140 was just a high number. I honestly just wished I weighed less.
Being obsessed with what I weigh on the scale is detrimental to my overall well-being. I am constantly being overly conscious of how I look and stressing over everything I eat. This is quite unhealthy. I do not have an eating disorder or anything of that sort but constantly stepping on the scale and aiming to weigh 125 and below 130 just doesn’t seem healthy to me anymore. I particularly hate the feeling of disappointment that comes with weighing yourself and realizing that you didn’t meet the set goal for that period.
Now, if you’re on a serious weight loss journey, perhaps the scale is good to keep you on track. This post is for me, currently weighing 151 lbs and wanting to get back to the time when I weighed 130 and below. I am a pretty muscular person and do not look like I weigh over 130 so it makes no sense that I’m so obsessed with this number thing.
This number thing is particularly tough for someone like me who loves food. I find myself deprived of things I love to eat and eating things I really don’t even care for. I focus less on the nutrients on a food label and more on the number of calories when I go food shopping. Moreover, it’s getting quite hard to deal with the fact that though I work out pretty consistently, the number on the scale doesn’t seem to be going down.
So today, I am choosing to let the scale and numbers go and focus more on what’s important.
Here are more important things to focus on:
- Ensuring that my body is being fed what it needs:. I must ensure that I am not nutrient deficient. My number one focus should be that I am healthy no matter what the number on the scale says.
- Staying fit and heart healthy:. I will work out and engage in fitness activities for the benefits they pose to my overall health. This means less focus on working out just for the sake of losing weight.
- Loving myself and focusing on the positives:. I must start working out and seeing food from a positive perspective. My driving force for working out and eating healthy must be because I love myself enough to want to give me the best and keep my body in good shape.
- Understanding that my optimal fitness is much much much more important than reaching an “optimal weight”: Weight and the number on the scale will fluctuate on a daily basis. Most times this fluctuation is due to uncontrollable variables. Variables such as hormonal changes, fluid retention sleep pattern and more. It’s unfair to put myself and my body through that stress.
- Focus on maintaining a healthy overall diet:. With the way my health has been lately, it makes so much more sense to focus on what I eat and how I obtain my nutrients. I must start focusing more on eating right all the time and eliminate the need for “cheat days” after depriving myself for days. I wrote more about my need to focus on a developing a sustainable healthy lifestyle in this Recommitting to a Healthier and Fit Lifestyle Post.
For someone who is not obese (and even if you are), your life shouldn’t revolve around the number on the scale. Aiming for good health should be the priority. You will be so much happier knowing that your goal and motivation is good health. I hope this post inspires you to focus on whats more important.
Thanks for stopping by. Let’s talk; are you or have you been obsessed with the number on the scale? Would you challenge yourself to let go of the scale? Share your thoughts in the comment box 🙂
Loves & Hearts! Asaake ♥