Hi There, Friends!
It’s so good to be back here. It feels really good to be back writing and sharing on the internet for you to read. I realized two things as I wrote the title and first line of this post:
- I have only published four posts in the last year. That’s shocking to me! I knew I wasn’t writing as much for public consumption, but I hadn’t realized I had almost completely ignored this space.
- I noticed I greeted you as “friends”. Well, that’s because I have been meaning to take things a little more personal on this blog. I finally feel like I am ready to do so. This doesn’t mean that I will share all of my personal life details here. Far from it! However, I have a strong desire to show even more authenticity than I have in the past, draw you in a little closer and truly form a strong community here.
So where have I been and why have I not been publishing posts here? It’s really simple. For the most part, I have been well. I simply lost my mojo for blogging, or should I say writing for public consumption. I knew that my blog had gone in the direction that I didn’t anticipate and I soon lost passion for it. When I first created this blog, It was for my own reasons. I wanted an outlet to explore, to write and to inspire my creativity. That only lasted for a short while before I got pulled into the world of blogging.
In this new Utopian world of blogging, (almost) everyone blogs for the possibility of growing it into some money-making small business. In this world of blogging, it is often said that If you love something or are good at something- say writing or photography-, you could and probably should be getting paid for those skills or hobbies. And if you grow it big enough, you could quit your full-time job and begin blogging full time- for business.
So I tried. I ventured into skincare blogging because it was fun. I thought that since I enjoyed taking care of my skin, finding and trying new organic skincare products, I could blog about skincare. I did enjoy that season of beauty & skincare blogging and all the perks that come with it (Mostly receiving free products to try from some of my favorite brands and even offers for product ads). It was all fun until my skin started to react terribly to all the stress of trying new products on it.
My desire for beauty blogging lasted for about a year and then I began to lose my passion for it. My skin’s reaction to new products was only one aspect of this loss of passion. What contributed even more significantly was my dissonance the entire time. I felt incredibly contradicted practicing minimalism and intentional living while almost hoarding all of these skincare products that were being sent to me. I knew that there was a way around this. I could help myself realize that the work I was doing was important; I was encouraging people to be more mindful of the ingredients in the products they use on their skin and helping people realize indie brands who were making a difference through sustainable practices.
The second major contributor to this loss of passion for the blogging I was doing was everything I had going on. It didn’t help that I also had to juggle a full-time job, full-time coursework toward a master’s degree, personal offline commitments to my friends and community and my own commitments to myself. It was inevitable that I would reach my breaking point. That breaking point meant a long-unplanned hiatus from this space.
But guess what? I am back! I think I am.
I am back with much clarity; I see the vision for this space and I am ready to do the work again, to protect that vision. That vision involves YOU!
My goal toward that vision is simple: Keep it authentic, keep it meaningful, take things slow, be present. It’s really as simple as that. This simplicity is beneficial to you- my readers. But most importantly, it is beneficial for me!
In coming back here, I hope to write more from a personal place of experience. To share this journey as I live it, in its true and authentic form. I’m coming back here with fewer expectations but with more freedom. Fewer expectations on what my posts should look like, how long or short they ought to be and the other backend technical stuff. More freedom to just write, create, share, and connect. There are no rules to follow anymore.
Well, there is a simple rule: While I intend to share more lived experiences, as Erin Loechner puts it: I do not intend to portion my life in the name of content.
I’ll end this by saying THANK YOU! I am grateful for all of you who have stayed around and allowed me to take my time. I can’t promise that you’ll hear from me every week, but I can assure you that I will write and share as often as I can and as often as my heart and mind leads me to.
Lots of Love,